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Post by Bella Cullen on Sept 15, 2009 6:02:07 GMT -5
"What if Michelle didn't want to be a vampire?" Bella asked "What if Seth didn't want her to be like that? What if I just made things worse?" she asked, the guilt piling up "And I should have been stronger, I should have just gone out and hunted. Edward does deserve better, he is perfect and he deserves someone perfect
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Post by Edward Cullen on Sept 15, 2009 16:31:01 GMT -5
He heard Esme's worry making him fly through the opening where the back door used to be. When he saw Bella he lifted her up and inspected every part of her body, he saw the blood red of her eyes but ignored this as he lifted her top to see her torso was all intact as the image of her broken still burned him. When he was satisfied he began cradling her to his chest. His hand was stroking her back soothingly, 'Bella, love I'm here. It's okay. I'm so sorry, I promised I'd never let anyone hurt you. I've failed.' Relief was running through him, if he could cry tears would be streaming down his face. His body was still tense with rage more powerful than he'd ever felt, he was already plotting in part of his mind tracking and ripping Jane apart. He thought Jasper and Emmett would help he was considering whether he should bring Carlisle, Alice and Rose.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Sept 15, 2009 16:31:29 GMT -5
Bella could have cried with releif when Edward came in, she was so glad that Jane hadn't taken him away from her. "Edward" she sighed in releif, suprised when he lifted her shirt, knowing that if she was human she would be blushing. When she knew that he was satisfied she was glad that he held her to his chest, her arms wrapping back around him as she breathed in his sent, glad to be so close to him again, sick of her joints aching. Edward's words sent shock through her system. "Edward" Bella murmered back to her husband "You did nothing wrong, it's not your fault, please, just don't worry about it, I've missed you too much to worry about it, I haven't seen you in 7 weeks" she reminded him, more worried about him then herself "Please, promise me that you won't go an do anything stupid?" she asked him, knowing that she was still in too much pain and too weak to go after him if he decided to try and kill Jane. She could feel his body tense with rage and didn't want him anywhere near Jane "Please?" Bella asked again, feeling pathetic still from what she had done. "We have to get out of here anyway" she whispered to him "Or Jacob is going to kill me" she said, just above a whisper
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Post by Edward Cullen on Sept 15, 2009 16:37:19 GMT -5
Edward's face was a picture of pain, he was blaming himself for everything that had happened. 'It is Bella, I promised never to leave you, I promised to take care of you. I don't deserve you as my wife. But I could never live with out you.' He leaned Bella back then so he could stare into her eyes, 'Bella, no one will hurt you. What's happened? Why would Jacob try to hurt you?' He thought this may be to do with Bella's eye colour but did not voice this question, he didn't care if she'd slipped up as long as she was still here with him.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Sept 15, 2009 17:25:41 GMT -5
"You didn't leave me" Bella reminded Edward "You had to go hunting, you can't just not hunt, and three of those weeks I was gone, not you, I don't deserve you as my husband because you deserve so much better" she reminded him, hating it when Edward blamed himself "Please Edward, don't start blaming yourself" she begged him, knowing it was all her fault because she changed Michelle, that nothing would have happened if she had left her. "I-i bit someone" Bella admitted, hanging her head in shame, know Jacob would kill her "Jane took Michelle and I bit her for Seth"
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Post by Edward Cullen on Sept 15, 2009 17:38:06 GMT -5
Edward was shaking his head to Bella's words, he couldn't accept that he'd let this happen to her. He stopped abruptly as Bella explained what had happened, he tried to control his shock that she'd changed someone and was relieved to hear it was to save someones life. 'Bella you saved someones life? If Seth asked for this then you've done nothing wrong. Jacob knows you, he knows you would not just stand by and watch as the love of Seth's life died. It would have destroyed him and he is our friend. Hopefully Michelle can come to terms with this and her and Seth will figure something out, you did the right thing.' He smiled at her trying to reassure her, he could see she didn't look very relieved, 'Bella I've just got you back, your not going anywhere but if things with Jacob go badly and you do want to leave then you know I will follow you anywhere. We will need to speak to Nessie before we do anything though. He frowned slightly at this, he knew Nessie wouldn't want to leave Jacob but he also knew Jacob would never do anything to hurt her and hurting her mother would definitely hurt Nessie.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Sept 15, 2009 18:06:35 GMT -5
Bella shook her head slightly, hating herself "No Edward, I killed someone, i ended her life, Jacob wasn't so understanding when I WANTED you to bite me, Michelle probably doesn't even want this, I've ended her life and turned her into something she probably doesn't want to be"
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Post by Edward Cullen on Sept 15, 2009 18:12:52 GMT -5
Edward stared at Bella shocked by her words, he'd thought she was happy as a vampire he couldnt believe she thought of it this way. This is exactly what he feared when he agreed to turn her. He stopped caring about what happened to the girl he barely knew and was abruptly worried about what his wife was feeling, 'Is that how you feel? That your life is over? That I killed you?'
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Post by Bella Cullen on Sept 15, 2009 18:23:23 GMT -5
Bella froze dead in her tracks at Edwards words, stopping to go over in her head what she had said before she realized "What?" she asked "No! This IS what I want! Always and forever! I want you and I want to be with you for the rest of forever, but just because it is what I want doesn't mean it's what she wants, all I want is you. She can't have you, I'm very selfishly keeping you to myself, but just because I want to be a vampire and live forever with you doesn't mean that she wants to be a vampire and live forever. For all we know she thinks I did something worse then kill her. If she accidently bites seth he'll die, the sent of him will repulse her, i may have screwed everything up for her"
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Post by Edward Cullen on Sept 16, 2009 13:45:13 GMT -5
Edward wrapped his arm round Bella's shoulders and brought her close to him, he kissed her forehead and spoke softly to her 'I know you do, I'm sorry I was just worried after all thats happened that you may have changed your mind. We don't know how Michelle will react but remember Seth has managed to be friends with vampires hopefully he and Michelle will work it out. There's nothing more we can do.' Edward pulled Bella's chin up and spoke in a firm voice 'Bella until everything with the volturi and Michelle is done with I don't want you leaving my side. Not even for a second please, I need you to do this for me. It's the only way I will be able to protect you.' Edward was nearly begging her. The only way he would allow her to be away from him is if he hunted Jane, but he wasn't going to tell her that plan just yet.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Sept 16, 2009 14:50:11 GMT -5
Bella wanted to cry because she knew that Edward was hurting because she had been stupid enough to let Jane catch her. She wanted to tell him that it was fine, that she didn't need protecting, that everything was going to be fine and that nothing was going to happen to her because she was a vampire now, but she knew she couldn't, that Edward wouldn't even listen to her if she tried. She just gazed back into his eyes, knowing that there was only one way that she was going to be able to make him happy even if it ment that she was going to hate every second and feel like she was being babysat again. "Fine" she told him, her gaze not leaving his eyes "But you and only you, you can't just expect anyone else to babysit, I'm not going to put up with being babysat again"
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Post by Edward Cullen on Sept 16, 2009 15:15:18 GMT -5
Despite Edward's anxiety and rage he tried to smile for his wife, 'That's fine. I want you all to myself anyway, think of it as spending time with your husband rather than babysitting.' Edward's tone had lightened but the pain and rage was still in his eyes and the tense position of his mouth, to any human he would seem calm but he knew Bella would see through the mask.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Sept 16, 2009 19:32:48 GMT -5
Bella sighed, still seeing the rage and anxiety in Edward's eyes that he was trying to hide from her, the tensed position of his mouth. She moved her hands to either side of his face, her fingers lightly rubbing his cheeks trying to calm him. "I have an idea" Bella sujested, wanting to get into bed where she didn't have to move or stand up, but also wanting to relax Edward "How about we go back home and crawl into bed and we can watch Romeo and Juliet in bed" Bella sujested "Then we can all relax a little" she sujested
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Post by Edward Cullen on Sept 17, 2009 12:51:42 GMT -5
Bella's touch relaxed his features slightly and he inhaled deeply trying to relax himself. He put his hand gently under Bella's legs and lifted her so he was cradling her to his chest. 'That sounds nice. You need some rest, I'll get Carlisle around later to look at your injuries.' Edward ducked his head so he could kiss her forehead before walking back to their cottage with Bella safely in his arms. He swung the door open and tucked Bella into bed before getting the movie out and joining her.
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Post by Bella Cullen on Sept 17, 2009 19:41:19 GMT -5
"I'm fine, really, I don't need Carlisle" Bella insisted, "I'm just a little sore" she told him, moving into Edward's arms when he joined her on the bed, pressing her lips to his lightly quickly before turning slightly so she could see the TV. "I'm going to be fine Edward, really, I promise" Bella promised "As long as I have you I'm fine" she tried to ease his worries "I love you"
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